this how i spent the last six days of my life. enjoy.

This is the rest stop down at a McDonald's with a Ronald McDonald statue and FIFTY CENT icecreams rather than the normal NINETY NINE CENT ones. win.

the biggest chip i ever did see. and say hello to brendan, he was a major part of making my week beautiful.

we were building a wheelchair ramp for unfortunate souls. it was a lot harder than it looks, and this was only just the beginning.

can i just mention how happy brendan looks here. he was probably just ecstatic that he got to shovel while i took nice pictures.

it was terribly hot and humid outside.

hey it's really coming together! and this is mitchell, a freshman who had a crush on me. aww.

brendan's 7-chin yawn is what gets him the ladies.

this cat seriously loved me. it was 20 feet away and i called 'KITTY!' and it came over. i was afraid it would have a disease or something. so i took a picture and let it on its way. she proceeded to walk over to a nice cadillac and pee on the driver's side door. ewwie.

the air pressure from this nail gun really seemed to be getting to him.

one side complete!

look at those (nail)guns.

look at those (nail)guns.

i'm clearly enjoying my week.

brendan's "senior" pic.

we're purple-ing.

the big cheese.

i was really enjoying the air pressure. almost as much as brendan if not more.

brendan did a really good job color-swapping on my camera.

this would be mitchell.

pastor L, the brains of the operation.

the first ramp complete! (not the one with the gate picture) and their beautiful house!

this is apparently how we fell asleep during our lunch break.

i don't have any beginning pictures of the beginning of this ramp, but here's us in the middle of working on it.

his name is pretty boy. and we fell in love.

umm, shirtless boys? and an almost done ramp!

all of us & the pastor of the church we stayed at.

we just needed to finish the gate and we were running out of time.

what a beautiful gate design.

the wheelchair ramp team (minus two because they were at the other work site) and the woman who's house it was for.

yay for another finished ramp and the side of a house!

initials and a flower in concrete.

IF you were wondering, though you are probably not, i was on a mission trip for the past week. it was extremely tough but still one of the best times of my life for sure. i will never forget it, unless i get short term memory which i hope i do not. chillicothe ohio, you have made my summer start out better than i could have ever imagined.

there's a possibility this might be funny.

ten things that i hate about today (because i feel like being oh so optimistic)

1. it's official, my best friend is going off to college and i'm going to be stuck here in the world of high school and drama.
2. i watched one tree hill. and even though it's a dopey tv show drama it never ceases to put me in a sad memory kind of mood. so i've been thinking about the certain boy that used to put me on the edge of my seat, with butterflies not only in my stomach but in my nose and feet and throat too.
3. i'm stressed about packing for the mission trip which i leave for tomorrow but just don't have enough time.
4. and my room is messy, again. what gives?
5. i don't know where catch-22 went :(
6. i have to drive so many places today it's obnoxious.
7. i'm breaking out EVERYWHERE. my chin, my forehead, my cheeks. i'm a walking zit.
8. the majority of my friends are taking the act right now, so i don't really have anyone to talk to.
9. Lost is still over, forever. And that'll always get me down. I'm a nerd.
10. ...and the world spins madly on

fav bandz @ da mo.

(don't mind my super cool slang title)

1. The Weakerthans


2. The Cure
(seriously i have bad luck with them on youtube or something because every video i click on of the songs i want to post on here don't work)

3. The Kinks

(enjoy the dancing stick figure)

4. The Weepies


5. Alkaline Trio

and obviously that list had no particular order because I pretty much love all of those bands equally.

typical, cliche list

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people (but don’t say their name):

1. I really wish you would just randomly hold my hand in public so that everyone could see that you like me.
2. I'm sorry I'm rude to you sometimes, but I do love you.
3. Please, never never ever ever take me to a random drinking party again. Especially when I was expecting Steak N' Shake.
4. I'm sorry that I get really nervous when I'm playing golf sometimes, but it's really only when a million eyes are on me. That's my only worry for next year. I'm sorry.
5. Thanks for helping me out a lot with my writing this year, I really appreciate it.
6. You have no idea how much I'm going to miss you next year. Well, maybe you do considering I say it every day.
7. You should schedule me on weekdays, too.
8. YOU ARE CRAZY.
9. I'm sorry, for reals.
10. I hate your guts (Wow, harsh I know, but I wish to say it so I'm being honest).
Nine things about myself:
1. I learned today that the angle of my neck is at about 11 degrees when it should be 45 degrees. And apparently this doesn't happen naturally so I must have undergone some major trauma that somehow I don't remember.
2. I like changing my appearance often. I like change.
3. My room becomes dirty every two days without fail. No kidding.
4. Golfing seriously puts me in a good mood almost all the time.
5. My self confidence level has grown IMMENSELY over the past year.
6. My favorite colors are yellow and purple. And I hate that they're my school colors.
7. I don't like it when my nails are too long.
8. I actually want a boyfriend.
9. My hair looks really good right now.

Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Be original. But be yourself.
2. Hug me even when I don't want to hug you.
3. Have real problems, don't complain about everything though.
4. Tell me the truth, but know what you're allowed to keep from me without it constituting as a lie.
5. Push me around, question me, challenge me, don't just let me win.
6. Bring me random gifts, not flowers.
7. Come with me when I'm doing fun things I enjoy (ex. golfing, movies, walks) and invite me to do fun things with you.
8. Give me time and space when I need it. And I'll definitely give you yours.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. I like him.
2. What was I going to do?
3. Time check.
4. When can I go golfing next?
5. I have to pee.
6. I hope I have enough time to take a nap.
7. I wonder if Jess/Matt are busy..

Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Pee
2. PJs
3) Computer
4) Phone
5) Pray
6) Think

Six people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever):
1) Jess
2) Matt
3) Denise
4) Parents/Other family
5) Ashley
6) Allie

Five things almost constantly in your possession:
1. Phone
2. Watch
3. Money or Credit Card
4. Keys
5. Pen or Pencil

Four things you did today:
1. Apples to Apples
2. Nap
3. Chiropractor
4. Shopping

Three places which mean a lot to you:
1. My home
2. My grandparent's farm
2. Target
Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Get married
2. Live

One confession:
1. I'm worried that my writing isn't going to be as awesome in the rest of the world as it was in my creative writing class to my one teacher. Like, I'm scared that every where else I submit something or go to write something is just going to reject and hate everything.

this is mostly because i'm an emotional person.

Dearest and Loveliest Jess,
I think it's silly how we knew eachother my freshman year, but barely talked. And it's crazy to think of the first time I came into your house with Luke, Matt, and Rachael and how almost awkwardly placed it was. It was the most random people at the most random of times. I even remember that I had a spoon and I wouldn't stop sucking on it as if I was a kindergardener or something. And then thinking about walking down into your basement on that bright and beautiful day compared to the cold day I walked down there in sweats to an amazing surprise birthday party. Or even to compare it to any other regular day when I walk down there to find you still half asleep in your bed. It's unbelievable how quickly our friendship grew, but I love it more than anything. You are the most important part of my life aside from my family which you have basically become. You have a key to my house for goodness sakes. You had commencement today and if I was there I would definitely be the annoying person to clap for one specific person. Except probably not because I'd chicken out. You are going to grow up to be the most lovely lady that anybody will have the chance of meeting, even if they don't know that right away. They surely will. It's unreal how different my life is going to be next year without you living right down the street, but I'll visit you whenever I can obviously. For the sake of not writing a novel, I'll stop here. Good luck with your futureeee.
Sincerely,
Me

i just need a list.

1. it's been far too long.
2. i want to kiss this one particular boy right now. that'd be cool.
3. my schedule is beyond full this weekend. i don't know how that's possible, but somehow it happened.
4. it's kinda nice outside. i want to lay frisbee, too bad i have to leave for work in about 3 minutes.
5. catch-22 hurts my head to read. there are a lot of characters to remember. i'm now on the 60th page and it might be making a little sense now.
6. want to go swimming with me?
7. chiropractors are awkward. at least mine is. and apparently my back is majorly screwed up all over the place. so that's cool.
8. i have the sniffles.
9. can they send me home from work early tonight? that'd be splendid. or just call me off tomorrow, even better.
10. i really enjoy the soundtrack to 'i love you man,' and 'funny people.' i also REALLY enjoy those movies. but at this moment i forget if i own funny people, and if not then i need to buy it right away.