i've become addicted to fruity pebbles within the last week.

i really have nothing to say, i guess i never do, but i've been thinking quite a lot. and i felt like blogging about what i was thinking. because some of the things are things that i just want to get off of my mind; they've been stuck there for a long while and i kind of want most of them gone. because they get me down a lot. other things are just random things on my mind.

1. so i'm in this band, sort of, and i don't like the music we play. but i like to please people, so i just kind of go with it.
2. for some reason i'm terrible at soccer this year, but it's still fun because that's the point.
3. probably one of the saddest things is when i hear a new song and i know my cousin Jess was never really here to listen to it.
4. i often happen to get myself into bad situations with guys.
5. my best friend is going to look beautiful tonight at prom and i love her.
6. i don't know what i'm doing today after my soccer game. maybe i'll wash my sheets.
7. i've gained about 20 pounds over the past school year. that's awful.
8. i have these two dreams. more like nightmares that i've been having basically back and forth for the past year. i hate them.
9. i really really really really like The Weepies. my soul mate needs to like them as much as i do. if i even really have a soul mate.
10. golf is going to be a blast, i'm rather looking forward to it this year.
11. the concept of ex-boyfriends is lame. i guess everyone's not the same. and i've only really dated two people. one was for over a year and he tells people he hates me and that i sleep around. i don't, i promise. and the other one i dated for less than a week, and he looks at me creepily when we walk past one another in the halls at school. i'm just not a fan of it. maybe that's why sometimes i don't want a boyfriend, because i don't want another ex.
12. f.y.e. only had one cd by The Weepies and it was cracked so i didn't want it.
13. so i'm listening to pandora radio, my station is 'tuned' to the weepies and music like the weepies, of course. and so i've had this other song written on my hand for about a week now that i said i have to listen to called "First Day of My Life" by Bright Eyes and it just came on. that made my day probably.